Sex, V-day, and the single girl

If you have ever dated me, wanted to date me, or even thought about dating me- I feel for you. I am a pain in the ass, I admit it. I am controlling, argumentative and confrontational at times, and I expect you to know what I want without me telling you. I expect you to read my mind when I am angry, I crave constant attention, I hold grudges if you hurt me, my kids ALWAYS come before you AND us! But I am also very caring and loving, very kind and honest, I really "throw" myself into a relationship. I fully support you and feel that if it's meant to be-it's worth it. I am a hopeless romantic. I love flowers!!
I am alone again on V-day this year, and it sucks!! I have my kids-but sometimes I need the attentions of a male. My mom told me when we had "our talk" as a teen that sex was hard-it changed everything, and once you started having sex it was hard to stop. She was right!! I have replaced sex with great workouts (my 1 year celibersary is next week ), going on "dates" with reading books, cuddling in bed with my guy with cuddling with my pillow. I focus my attentions on my work, my kids, my health. I cry at commercials, and sometimes when watching a romantic movie I have to turn it off. I rented "Must Love Dogs" last week and still haven't watched it because I don't want to watch it alone. Honestly-I haven't really been "single" very much in my life, and it is hard to get used to. (I know-poor me)
But I did realize that even though I haven't been single on many Valentine's Days, my worst ever Valentine's Day was with a boyfriend. Also I don't know that I ever treated to a "Valentine's Day" the way I feel it should be. OK- not often. For me I think a Valentine's Day should involve devotion, adoration, compassion. A dozen roses are definitely a plus- but I would LOVE a handful of hand-picked daisies. (my favorite) Candlelight dinner-prepared by my guy-music and soft lighting, great mood setters. V-day doesn't need to be expensive, just rich in preparation and thoughtfulness. That is what makes a great memorable V-Day. I hope you all have that tonight!