Frances Bean Cobain

WOW. I am extremely sad when I look at these pictures. This is Frances Bean Cobain, the daughter of Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love, today age 13! You see, I am/was obsessed with Kurt Cobain. He was SUCH an inspiration to me. I love his music, I was a true fan before all of the commercialism that became...Nirvana. I was hooked from the start, before Nevermind. The name of my post is after my favorite Nirvana song, Drain You. He wrote it for Courtney when they were dating. He was completely in love with her. Not to sound TOO psychotic, but I have every song they ever made: reg cd's, bootlegs, b sides, rarities, their final concert, etc. I saved all of the magazines he was on the cover of the day after he killed himself: Rolling Stone, Time, Spin.. I have an autographed record from him that he recorded with William S. Burroughs.
The day Kurt killed himself I was at work. My roommates called me to tell me the news. I burst into tears immediately and went home. I was a front end mgr at a grocery store! I was not 21 yet, only 20, but I had a bottle of Seagram's rum at home. I was devastated. I felt like a member of my family had been taken away from me again! (my grandma died of cancer 1 mo before) One of my roommates, Charles, (the other was his girlfriend, my best friend)played bar tender for me. We stayed up all night long, talking about Kurt, listening to Nirvana, and drinking the rum. Although, I think I was the only one really drinking. At one point I remember going outside and laying on the hood of my car and screaming , "WHY?? WHY??". I passed out at 5am. Caitlyn was only 6 mo old (and NOT at home). Frances Bean was 18 mo.
Days later I did weird things like write letters to Courtney about being a single mom, and daydream that Caitlyn and Frances would be friends someday. I know- weirdo. But I will never forget Kurt Cobain for his music, his lyrics, his heart and his pain. To this day I continue to be influenced by his words, they wake up my mind sometimes when I think it has fallen asleep.
RIP Kurt, we miss you! 2/20/67- 4/5/94 (he was only 27!)
to learn more about Kurt and Nirvana, go to www.cobain.com