Where is my head?

OK So I forgot one!!!!!

Tied for 2nd place....David Blaine...he is so cocky and confident and totally charismatic! He is so talented with his magic and super hot too. He ties for 2nd place with John Krasinski.

Top 10 candidates for position of my boyfriend

I watched that movie "My Date With Drew" last night and it inspired me.I am currently in the process of looking for a new boyfriend. Here is a prospective list of the top 10. Single/married, taken/available, it really doesn't matter, right?
So anyone reading this-if you have the means please feel free to try to help hook it up for a poor girl!

10...Jon Favreau...Probably the most unexpected on my list.He is a funny guy! I loved him in "Swingers" and "Love & Sex"-funny guys are a turn-on!

9...Tate Donovan..."Love potion #9", the voice of Hercules in the Disney movie-that good-guy persona, whata sweetie!

8...Jeff Goldblum...I have taken crap for this over the years! I can't explain it-something about him!I loved him in the movie "9 Months"

7...Dennis Quaid...he is a hot older guy! Stable-well adjusted?

6...Adam Brody...something about his dumb lisp and cute/funny ways just gets me.But really- I AM NOT an OC fan I swear.

5...Brad Pitt...yeah he's still rates. Look at him-need I say more??

4...Brandon Boyd...rock stars-uh huh. He is the lead singer for Incubus but of course dates only skinny models.

3...Zack Braff...what a funny guy, I constantly laugh when I watch him on "Scrubs" or even in interviews.Plus how creative-he WROTE/STARRED IN/DEVELOPED THE SOUNDTRACK for the movie "Garden State"

2...John Krasinski...OK not only do we share the same birthday (not year though-he's a tad bit younger!), he seems so down to earth-which makes me think , "If only we met-I'd have a chance!", and if he's anything like his character in "The Office"...swoon


1...OF COURSE...Jared Leto-yeah he's a TOTAL womanizer, but I just can't get over "Jordan Catalano", and now a rock star to boot??!!! The question is- could I really get over Lindsey's (and now Jessica Simpson's) leftovers? Um-probably.

I need to get a life.

Settling In!

So we have been in our new house for almost 2 weeks and I love it. It is so nice to have all the space and we are able to bond more as a family without all the "outside interference" and people trying to "butt in." My girls have been adjusting-they have had their ups and downs. So have I-it has definitely been different for us and we have had a LOT going on! From struggling w/the dog and cat's needs, to writing the rules for Caitlyn being home alone as we go, to Gabriella's persistence w/ going UP and DOwn, Up ANd DOwn the stairs- and especially not getting cable/dsl hooked up for 8 DAYS! It has been hard. My grandma is sad and I worry about her all the time. She calls a lot, I had her over for the day last Sunday, I made sure Caitlyn called her the other day too. She called last night and said she wanted to see us and missed us. I told her we would visit Friday. She also told me that my uncle hasn't been home until after 11 at night all week-which really irritates me. Someone needs to be there to make sure she eats and takes her medicine and quite frankly doesn't burn the house down or get hurt. She told me the other day she tried to make Chicken Paprikas and thought the stove was on simmer but it was on high-she burned the food, the stove burner and the pan-she had to throw out the pan and the stove burner because they were so badly burned. No one will listen to me-most of all her- SHE HAS NO BUSINESS COOKING OR USING HER STOVE AT ALL!! I am so scared that something bad is going to happen to her. The weekend I moved Gabriella ate lunch over there and my grandma warmed her something up in the toaster oven before she spent the day w/Len's mom. I was at my grandma's about 3-4 hrs later, and the toaster oven was STILL on! I purposely mentioned it to her in front of my uncles, and she joked about it and my other uncle just said, "Mom you need to be careful about those things." Ok sure.
So-my workouts-they have stopped. I went from working out daily to not at all in the past like 3 weeks. I have tried to workout at home a few times, I have an exercise bike I've gone on twice and I do crunches and stuff every night, but it is so not the same. I still continue to lose weight, which amazes me. I have not been as careful w/ my diet and upped my calories to 1600+-still way below normal, but I had a cookie the other day, last week I had some wendy's fries, again not NEARLY as careful. But on a great note- I have been wearing my old shorts, they fit me perfectly. SIZE 6-my goal has been achieved! So really now all I have to do is tone. Easy, right? sure. I definitely need to get in some sort of fitness routine because my unpacking is done, the move is complete-I'm sure all that really helped w/ my fitness, so I don't want to stray at all. You can be at a good weight and still be out of shape or in poor health, which I do not want to do!
Caitlyn has been a trooper-again good days and bad days, c'mon she is 12 1/2. She is so good about keeping the house clean, making sure the dog goes out, not wasting electricity, cleaning up after self-which is SO NOT her. I think she appreciates that this is our house and not just us living at my grandma's. She has some friends that live 1 street directly behind us, and between our houses there is just a parking lot of a church so we can view each other perfectly w/not obstruction. The girls (sisters) are good kids, their mom is a Lorain cop. But yesterday after telling Caitlyn 3 times already I realized that those kids are eating me out of house and home. They went through 1 whole box of mini-pizzas, 1 box of Lean Pockets (guess whose), 16-yes 16 fudgesicles, 3 smuckers cheese sandwiches, etc etc and not all from yesterday, but most from yesterday. Plus Caitlyn has had a few visitors come over to hang out and play volleyball at night, besides these girls a boy has come over which I think is her boyfriend, but of course she will not admit it. I know what you are thinking-I don't think that the boy has come over during the day, I have specifically told her no boys over and no one over without me knowing, and I also told her (fib) that I had an agreement w/the neighbors and they were watching the house to see if anyone was coming over-then last night I said the neighbors (fib) said there were kids over and she said "Yes! Caitie and Alexis!I told you about that!" I know she is telling the truth. Plus I said that my dad and uncle were going to drive by the house every day to see what was going on too.
(fib) But we continue to come across new things daily-now her phone is not working so I have no contact w/her. The first day we discovered it wasn't working and I asked her why she didn't use her friend's phone to call me, she said she didn't think of it. Yesterday I left her money for the payphone, she never called. She said that the friends' mom had her phone-which I did try to call & it was turned off, & she said that she did not find the money. So today we are trying it again. I gave her money and said she MUST call me 3 times, and if she doesn't she will be going to my grandma's house all next week. So far she has called me once! The problem with her phone is-long story short-her new camera phone I got her was stolen so she is stuck w/ one from my stepmom from like 2001. It is horrible and I think I need to get a new battery. We have already had so many problems I have taken it to Verizon twice already. But a free phone is a free phone, so what else can I do? If the battery is a lot I might just get her a new one again, but I told her there is no way I am getting her another camera phone again! That was nicer than mine and she only had it for 6 days! I s/w the principal several times because it was stolen in school-she knew who it was, I talked to the kid that night he was dumb enough to answer the phone before I finally had it cut off, we filed a police report, etc. We had no proof so the kid, who was suspended for something else like 2 days later, so he probably ditched the phone and he got away with it. I feel so bad because she loved that phone and she is so trusting and naive sometimes. She was probably messing around with it and he saw her, the teacher asked for her help to hang something in the hall and in her next class she realized that it was gone. So we are stuck w/ the Craporola hand me down.
Ok I guess I am getting back to work now. I have some funny stories to share about my new neighbors that I will write about next week!

Moving Day!

After so long it is finally coming, and not a moment too soon. In retrospect I am in no way the same person that I was that long 20 months ago. I think about when it finally clicked and I told my boyfriend of five + years, father of my youngest child, that it was over FOR REAL, that since he wouldn't leave we were. Wow that was so hard, I was so depressed (understatement) at that time. I had gained almost 54 pounds, didn't care about myself to wear any makeup, dress nicely, and barely brushed my hair. I had a highly stressful job as a store manager where my boss was on my ass constantly, everyone was a back stabber, I worked an average of 55-60 hrs plus drive time of 1 hr 30 min round trip per day, work nights/weekends/holidays, and my staff called me constantly with stupid questions and situations that they should have handled on their own. I cried daily and just felt so sorry for myself, I was such a downer and so cynical. Len still had control of me. It hurts to think and remember myself that way, as I said I am completely different now.
Where I cried daily or multiple times daily, now I would say I rarely cry. I have lost 45 pounds and eat healthy and exercise daily. I have a new career in insurance where I work 8:30-5 mon-fri, ( I still have the drive though), Len no longer has control of me, and although I still have not technically been on a date or anything (since 1999)-it is ok, I am happy, I try to be upbeat and positive, and doing so I think I am a better mother and role model to my children. Life is again exciting to me-just to see what is coming next. I do wear make-up and brush my hair again! WOOHOO! I care about my appearance and just generally try to take better care of myself. I am happy to have my life and appreciate that everything that has happened has brought me to this moment and made me the person I am. Although I have been through a lot of tough situations, it has really helped me to become stronger.

SO-the move!!
Yes we are moving this weekend! We are still going to be in the same town, which is good and bad. It is a 2 story 3 bedroom house with a huge backyard and big pantry. My dog and cat won't be forced to life in the basement, there is a huge front porch and flower beds too! I am a big believer in things happen for a reason and destiny, so here is the story!
When Len and I moved into our old house in 2000, we had been looking for a while and finally found our house. It wasn't great-but it was a house. So after we moved in and got all settled, my brother and his wife started looking to move. They lived in this huge 3 bedroom house in the same town, but wanted to move the next town over. When they finally found a house, and they said their landlord, who happened to live right next door to them, asked if they knew anyone that would want to move in to the house they were moving from. They asked us, and I thought about it, but we had just finally gotten settled, just got our dog, and only needed 2 bedrooms. We passed. That was 6 or so years ago. So fast forward to April-I was driving around the neighborhoods by Caitlyn's school looking for "for rent" signs. I saw this huge beautiful white house on a street I never really noticed. I wrote down the number and turned the corner to another street, which just happened to be the street my brother's old house was on. As I drove past his old house, I saw a U-haul truck and people moving OUT! There was no "for rent" sign or anything, but I just thought, hmmm! So I thought about it and I decided the next day I would just knock on his old landlord's door, see if they still owned the house, if they are looking to rent it, and tell them I am interested. I went and after a few times circling the block and getting up the nerve, I knocked on the door. No answer. I called my brother and talked about it and he gave me their name. I looked it up in the phone book, found their number, and the next day I called them. No answer. I left a message saying who I was, etc etc. I thought I would hear from them that day, but after 4 days of waiting and not hearing, I decided to move on. I looked at a couple of other houses that were OK, but didn't compare. So on that 5th day I was driving home and I got a call from the landlord. She told me that those people had given her 1 day notice and would be out by that weekend, then she needed to get in the house and see what needed done, repair it, and then she would give me a call. One thing my brother told me about those landlords is that they were total procrastinators and drug their feet for everything. So after about 10 days I called her back. She said there was still a lot of work to do, that it should be done by June 1st, she was planning to put a "for rent" sign up (huh? why?) and needed to get applications, she was gonna do that the next day and call me. Four more days go by-no call so I called her. I got the voicemail and left a message. 1 week later still no word, so in the meantime I had looked at another house, a duplex, very cute, very artsy, and I LOVED the owners-they were my age and cool. So I put in an app for that. The next day I called Jimmy's old landlord and thought I would give it one last shot. I called to tell them I was still interested but that I was looking at other places too, I got her dad. He was very talkative to me and told me all about the work he had been doing in the house, etc. they own it together and live together. He put his daughter on and I told her I was still interested and she said it still wasn't done and wouldn't be done till the next week. I could tell she was getting annoyed with me. I started to ask her if she had an application and as I did so her dad was in the background saying have her come over and get the application. So she told me to get it the next day. In the meantime I thought it was strange that I had never heard from the duplex people. But I did take Gabriella to bring the app to the other people and talked for a little bit w/ the dad and told him my situation with grandma, etc. He is close to her age too. So anyways, the next day I turned in the app and they were very vague about it and said they would call me. She called me the next day and asked me what kind of pets I had, I told her worrying that that would be the end of that. She then called to say that the number to my old landlord was disconnected, I told her I had no other number but gave her his wife's name too so that she could try to find it online. She said she should know something by the end of the next week, that was Friday 5/26/06. On Saturday I got a call from the duplex people, they wanted to offer it to me. I was so excited but told him that I was waiting to hear about another place too and I asked if I could call him that Tues, he said sure. So I decided I would call the house people and tell them I was offered another place but preferred theirs, and had they made a decision about me. I got the voicemail and left a message for them to call me. She called me back soon after and I told her the situation. She said she was pretty sure her dad wanted to rent it to me but that she needed to check with him and call me back. I said that was fine. She called me back that night and told me they wanted me to rent it and that I could move in Saturday 6/3/06-possibly late Friday night. They were getting new carpeting put in on that day for the entire first floor.
How about that story? ...DESTINY>>>>
I think had we moved in their 6 years ago we (Len and I) would have messed the situation up with all of our drama we had. So all those events led up to this great news and opportunity for us!!